The other day I was shuffling my cards and Death fell out of the deck and onto the floor. After calming myself from my unfortunate "oh no the death card someone I love is going to die aren't they" anxious reaction (that I really wish wouldn't happen, because that is completely unwarranted, Death doesn't mean death necessarily, in fact it usually doesn't) I looked up the meanings again to ponder why that particular card would fall out. I also looked up the cards in the middle of the deck and at the end opposite to which I replaced Death:
- Death is representative of cycles and their...erm...cycling. It can mean one ending, it can mean letting go, it can mean all sorts of things referring to cyclical "stuff goes on it doesn't just end get over yourself" things.
- 10 Cups can be yay family, but it's supposed to be a yay-card in general. Just, yays are afoot. The yays are coming be on the lookout for the yays. Yay.
- 8 Swords is a lot about emotion, and not in the best of ways -- it seems to go with those more negative feelings, like being trapped, being vulnerable...self-sabotage also comes up (using the Tarot Bible because key words are good for lazy people like me)
Considering that I drew these a day or so before I returned to school for my final semester, I would say these are pretty relevant. After all, graduating college is the end of a cycle, in a sense, the end of an era (and something, like with the Death card itself, I need to keep reminding myself doesn't mean an end to everything, just a turned page). The Ten of Cups idea of good things around -- that's good. That's comforting. And comfort in any degree is quite welcome when the future is causing me so much anxiety; in fact, that anxiety could be represented by the Eight of Swords. I feel absolutely screwed in regards to graduating, and I do think that worry paralyzed me a little bit last semester, even.
So, far from the morbid first impressions I got, it seems my deck was trying to remind me of conventional wisdom. To look for the good things that could be afoot rather than giving in to the bad emotions in this transitional period.
